Leader? Follower?

There is a relationship between a leader and followers.
As I always said, a leader-follower chemistry is always finely a balance equation. And I have to clarify this, I figured out that phrase to motivate people, not to just score some marks in english composition or whatsoever.
For me, a good leader is never a bad follower, but they don't follow blindly. Even if they are not the leader at that moment, they are trying resolutely to sound out their opinion, not to show off, but to make the event/activity/decision a better one.
A leader never makes decision that may make him regret one day. And this explains why leaders are sometimes indecisive, don't blame. They don't view thing in the way most people do, they view things as a whole picture. They analyse, ask for others' opinion and lastly, make the decision. Yeah I admit that sometimes the decision made is not what you think it ought to be. BUT, try to step into the leader's shoes and think about it. A leader is there to lead, or to please everyone?
Sorry, a leader is not there to entertain you, but you don't speak much, as you are making yourself an entertainment, You will look just Funny and Amusing.
Don't believe ? You try. This is my experience. I don't care whether it's right or wrong, I am just sharing with you guys.
Especially, particularly, for my buddy Syuqry. =) We WERE on the same boat once.
I gotta go practice now. I have tried my best to tell you what's in my mind. But my english command is not good and this is all I can give. Hope you get something from this post.

I am who I am

Yeah. I am who I am.
I've never changed into another person or changed to be who I am now.
From the first day I was born, till now, I am still the same person.
If you ever try to change me, then screw you, don't waste your time.
I am not a cold-blooded person, and I think this is the reason why I am known as "cry-bag" whenever it comes to leaving apart with people I care.
Trust me, DO NOT ever MESS with me, if you cannot handle my reply :)
Don't think that talking behind me is a kind of virtue for you, it's a disguise of shame.
Don't stalk me to check whether I live a happier life than you, because you are not me, you don't know how happy I am to live without you :)
Don't doubt this, because you are in my list. I mean, blacklist. :)
And I will give you a free advise, that is TO REMAIN SILENT.
Being silent makes others think that you are stupid, rather than opening your mouth or doing something that remove all doubt.
Don't make me do this again next week.
I am not gonna blog for you again.
I am who I am. Don't try to annoy you, because that has no difference with insulting yourself.
BUT! I really cherish my friends a lot. I can't live without my friends, buddies and family :)
I will be glad if there is someone reading my blog.
Don't judge me just reading my story, you just know a part of it.
Get to know me, it brings no harm :)
See you guys.

Homecoming

Don't ask me why I am gonna play truant just to go back Batu Pahat.
To be frank, I actually don't go back to just get the certificates.
I wanna meet my family. I miss them very much.
I seldom hate people or dislike people or whatsoever.
But you really got me fed up.
1st. Seldom there is someone who dares to criticize me. You did.
2nd. Seldom there is someone who dares to neglect my presence. You did.
3rd. Seldom there is someone who dares to let me down. You did it with much satisfaction.
4th. You don't even feel bad after doing something you should not have done.
You are the someone-not-to-be-named. Because your name will definitely dirt my blog. Spoil my mood as well.
But at the same time, I wanna thank you for dumping me.
Without your irresponsibilities, I won't get to know how important my family is to me.
Without your ignorance, I won't even know how great my friends, buddies are.
Without your absence, I won't be as sanguine as I am right now :)
Without your mistake made, I won't be able to be single and to be as happy as I am.
Without your changed mind, I don't think I can have such a wonderful life here in KMPP.
I am thanking you with sincerity, believe it , or not? I don't give a damn.
I wanna tell you and tell the world, I am happy to be a free man like this and I live a happier life than you. Always have, and always will.
Back to the topic, I am going home this thursday night :) Will be reaching approx 5 or 6am like that. Erm, let's hope that my driver will be my sakaious cousin - Mang Jie Sheng :P
Owh The sad thing is that I gotta spend one night in UTHM but the delighting news is that I am gonna register for the ceremony with 10+ Sakais a.k.a. my comrades in Kingscouts test ^^
I can't wait to see you guys.
We are gonna reminiscing our memory in Kingscout and Pre-Kingscout camp too.
Old days, I miss them so much.
Let me lead you all. For the last time.
See you guys very soon. :)

Vampire Diaries

I am so in love with this drama :)
I know I am very outdated but look, I just love it :P
Katherine, bite me !
Or otherwise, Elena Gilbert, bite me :P

Life in KMPP

I don't really wanna boast about this.
But KMPP is the place where you can enjoy your college life and at the same time achieve good result with good time management :)
The schedule here is really packed to an extent that you have no much time for playing, resting or whatsoever kind of entertainment, unless you really know how to manage your time well.
Basically, the students here are all very outstanding, 11A+ 10A+ 9A+ 8A+ 7A+ and I am in the 6A+'s category. Pathetic but I am so determined to work hard and to try my very best. Be it failure or success, but at least I am trying, so resolutely and I am never gonna give up :)
Oh ya the advantages of being in Matriculation College is that you don't have to worry about your coco marks :P
And I swear I don't wanna bury myself with so much responsibilities like what I did in secondary school, it's exhausting and not rewarding at all!
KACOM ya KACOM, I wanna participate in basketball KACOM as I wanna immerse myself in the laughter of my buddies and comrades in order to make my KMPP life never-to-be-forgotten :P
Or If I am not chosen for basketball, I wanna join athlete contingent simply because I don't wanna let Cikgu Subra down, sports for life I remember he said.
By the way, I am so thankful that I got to know a lotsa buddies here in KMPP.
Meeting you all is a beginning, knowing you all is a process and working together with you all is SUCCESS :)
You all are the ones who never let me fall, not even once. And I really appreciate this a lot :)
We don't know what will happen tomorrow, so I am gonna cherish you all starting from today, by all means.
I mean it.
See you! People who make my life wonderful !

Birthday. Yang's.

Everyone has a family. And so do I.
Be it a lovely one or a not-so-lovely one, it is your family.
So no matter what... JUST LOVE IT!
MINE is a lovely one, as always.
I have 2 sisters who are much younger than me...
and a brother who is just about my age...
We have so much in common.
We are both Scouts, Leos...
And of course I gotta admit that he is a good singer, at least much better than I am! haha...
I AM PROUD OF HIM !
Another thing, I know that he failed his pre-kingscout test...and he was depressed and down at that time...
But alas , that time I was still in National Service while I could do nothing to help him at all.
Feeling guilty that I was not there for him when he needed my company the most...
Yang, I'm sorry.
But you GOTTA know, you fail, not because you are not qualified.
You are just a mere victim of the stupid system and the decision of those examiners.
We could argue for nothing even if we think that we are right, because they have the authorities.
What to do? No worries. Kingscout is not everything :) Though.
Nowadays people always judge by your academic achievement.
So Yang ah, show the world. What you can do :)
You are always smarter than me, and more talented than me.
Don't waste your connate talent okay?
Just don't give up, my company will be the best gift you will ever receive. I promise.
Lastly, Happy Birthday Bro.
Stay happy always okay? :) I am always here! As always.

Best Buddy. You Qian.

I would like to share my feeling to everyone, through this blog.
Yeah, everyone has friends, good friends or buddies.
I am of course not an exception.
I have a lot of buddies... Forgive me for not being able to list out one by one, each and every one of you...
Because today, I am just going to mention ONE, whom I think without him, I am totally not who I am right now...
When I was form 1, I knew him during our Sports Day...
After Sports Day, we were both selected to represent our school, which is HIGH SCHOOL BATU PAHAT.
We stayed back everyday, together. P/S : At this time, we were in different class. He's a top student while I was nothing.
We stayed back every year, together, continuously for 5 years...
Oh ya. Lemme tell you all, about my wish and my hope when I was form 3...
I wish to have good result in PMR (that's not the point), so that I could study Science Stream (that's not the point yet), and a brighter future assurance(OMG too far away from the point).
Actually my target that year, was just to get good result and GET INTO THE SAME CLASS WITH YOU QIAN. And my another target after the first target achieved, was to SIT BESIDE HIM IN THE CLASS.
and YOU KNOW WHAT?
I got 8 A's and sat beside him for 2 years consecutively!!!!!
I gotta thank our Creator :) Thanks for fulfilling my dreams, although they are just simple ones, but they've made my life more wonderful, meaningful than ever.
Sitting beside him actually gave me a lot of pressure and it served as a reminder for me to work hard...
One more thing, he taught me a lot and helped me everytime without any hesitation.
I am not gonna make this post a sentimental one...
But seriously, YOU QIAN, no matter who we are in the future, I hope we won't lose contact with each other. :)
I always wanted to write about you, but tonight you reminded me by my birthday gift.
OWH GOSH I seriously didn't expect that you would actually buy a gift for me since my birthday had already passed approximately 1 month ...
YOU QIAN, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

This is the shirt You Qian gave me...♥ it much!!!!!

LEO Club of High School Batu Pahat

Roar! Roar! Roar! That is the spirit each member in our Leo club holds on to throughout the fiscal year of 2009/2010. “Even the weak become strong when they are united.” This is best to describe the members of our Leo club. The members of our Leo club range from Form 1 to Form 6, but we never come up with an interaction problem among ourselves. Instead, we share our weal and woe together, our friendship goes beyond mere friends to that a closeness that only family members could boast of. It wasn’t that easy to create the bond between all of us, but soon after our very first major activity, which was our joint installation with Leo Clubs of SMK Dato Syed Esa and Chinese High School, we had made it! We couldn’t adapt carrying out activity with other Leo clubs at first, and that’s why the preparation and the organization of the installation was appalling. However, through endless exhausting rehearsals, we managed to stage up with an outstanding yet significant installation night with all the protocols and decorum followed. The theme of “Peace, Hope & Unity… The Mysterious Strength” emphasizes that we should treasure the great camaraderie between all of us in order to make this world a better place to live in. Being an active club in school and in zone, we had been committing ourselves in a total of 64 activities together, including our monthly general meetings, school service activities, community service activities, recycling projects, and some activities organized by Lions Club of Batu Pahat. We had always been playing our roles well in preserving and conserving our environment, knowing that the environmental problems were getting serious and critical. In order to create awareness among the students in our school, we had organized “Save Our Mother Earth” (SOME) Campaign. This campaign was simply an event to remind everyone about the importance of protecting and appreciating our planet. With a Leo Garden which had been announced by school principal as one of the most beautiful garden in school compound, we , Leos, most commonly known as “Green Warriors” in the school. Other than that, we also organized “The Joy of Sight” Sight First Campaign at Summit Parade, where we provided free eye-checkups to public and distributed discount vouchers with the help and supervision from Sing Kong Optical Shop. Another major activity of our club was our 1st motivational camp---LIFE Camp, organized jointly by LEO Club and Interact Club of High School Batu Pahat in Kem Sembrong, Air Hitam. Organizing Committee worked together and created this inedible experience to both the campers and the organizing committees as well. I believe that those who had once immersed themselves in the laughter during LIFE Camp remember how we hugged and sobbed together after the closing ceremony of the camp! Lo and behold, we are not just a mere club which enthuses in community services, school services, and activities organized by Lions Club. In fact, other than serving the community, working together happily is our second priority. We really enjoy the time being together with each and every one in this club. Although we had dealt with many obstacles and obstruction along the way to success, we never back away. We are a family, a big family. We go with the same surname. It is so-called “LEO”!

It's time to blog!

Actually I don't really know what to be posted, but I just feel like blogging :-P
My vessels are now filled with the hatred of losing to a 16 years old boy in 110m Hurdles event,but shall do nothing. Most of you are trying resolutely to comfort me in many ways, but trust me, they will never work. I just need a space and some time to recover spiritually, i need time to mend the patches.
You know? When you are confident enough to get 1 thing, but ended up getting nothing. It's like hell-giving! Yeah, I am with a great winning streak in me, and that is the problem why i felt down in the dumps when that guy trounced me.


But,
"The darkest night is often the bridge to the brightest tomorrow :-)


Just let bygones be bygones :-)
I know that mishaps are like knives, that either serve us or cut us as we grasp them by the blade or the handle (-:
The noblest exercise of the mind within doors, and most befitting a person of quality, is study.


SO, let's study :-P

I lovE. Y.oU.

I think I am not much better than a scumbag, or even worse.
Maybe I need guide, your guide, on what should I do.
It will be definitely better than keeping on making you sad, and I've been doing this stupid act for months, I am sorry.
I don't actually know what to be posted here.
I am kind of stupid, I suppose. Well, if I am not, you wouldn't have felt disappointed on me so far.
Feel like crying, damn!
Sorry and Please, please forgive me.
I don't ask for more, or I don't even have the rights to ask for anything, from you, for me.
Facing a person that I love so much, I really don't know how to put a full stop to it, to the thing that makes you suffering all this while.
SORRY!
Rest assured, I will keep trying, never will give up.
8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning, I love you.
You know this post is posted, because of you.

With heartfelt apology...I am sorry...

Down and depression.
Sorry for hurting you, although i know even though i apologize in my blog, you won't visit also, but at least this is my way to reduce my own stress, that makes me even think of committing suicide.

What I did is foolish and impulsive,
If I could take it all back I'd do so this INSTANT.
I truly did not mean to hurt you in ANY WAY.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
Letting you know,
I'm repentant for everything...and how much I'm wishing, for THINGS to be the same as they were. Hope you'll FORGIVE me.

I know it is not easy to undo the hurt that I've caused to you. But I do seek for your forgiveness or even a smile, just one smile will do.

I don't know quite how to make thing better between us. I can start by saying sorry. And I mean it, I really do.

I hope that you are reading this stupid post, but maybe I think too much.

Compromise

It is just the third week since the school reopens, but it really pisses me off!
Emotional Suffering is the most abundant damage in my heart for this week, yeah this week i think.
No one is in the fault, but it just hurts. Sorry.
I don't want to give promise, as im scare that i will hurt u more if i do so but i cannot make it, that is blank promise. But anyways, I will try to be more meticulous, from now on, i cannot assure everyone, but at least for u, i want to be.
I have long since i feel like not wanting to open my eyes every morning. Sport trainings, HOMEWORKS, i don't actually know how it helps in our SPM. Frankly speaking, i hate the system like this, i love self-learning, -.- (anyway this is how i study) .
Nothing to be crapped at this "wee's hours" (wahaha chien wee i miss u suddenly xD)
Compromise, with teacher, with school authority,
can you all please don't wake me up when i am asleep in class?
can you all stop giving that much of homework that makes me restless?
can you all stop asking for fame by the stupid ignorance to students' feelings?
can you all please please please please do something preferable?
Ok well, i know i won't be approved for this compromise.
Good night. Homework is awaiting although the fatigue is overpowering.
This is life.
LIFE IS JUST A BITCH. (Tuesdays with Morrie)

LIFE Camp

A successful one~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope that those who had attended the camp are feeling damn great right now.
Im so happy , so delighted just by seeing you all enjoying the camp.
Really feel very unbearable to leave the campsite, to say goodbye with the campers and nevertheless, to leave the committees who had shared the weals and woes together and solved problems or trying situation together.
I cried, really cried.
It was just too touchy when we sing 朋友。
When the song reached the chorus, it was just the first chorus, my tears started to be that "girlish" and flowed out...
I went to the back of the crowd and tried to calm myself down and to stop myself from crying anymore, but, i failed.
After shaking hands with the campers, i hugged some closer campers, and then i cried again.
Damn touchy...
I went to the back of the stage after the playing of the song, as i clearly know that my tears were going to flow out again, or maybe can be described as "pipe-leaking-alike tears"
I met with Soo Jian at the back of the stage, when i saw him crying... wah omg my tears straight away flowed down again... i hugged him...he cried out that "i scared that im doing not that well"...
"Soo Jian ah, our camp so success liao...dun care bout all those stuff"
then we hugged together and cried.
We are not just sobbing, we crying loudly as the sound of the mikes were much more louder than ours.
So "pity" that i cannot join other committees at the 1st bus -.-
SOB~~~!!!!
only a few committees in the third bus...
Cant take picture either...
damn exhausted.
Anyway, im both happy and sad.
Nice Camp
LIFE CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!! ROCKs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

D.O.W.N.

Facing damn lotsa problem recently, created by some irresponsible creatures, who are considered as the cleverest creature in the continent.
They are just being too NAIVE, or shall i use "STUPID" ?
Yea, im DAMN annoyed right now.
You may thought that im being too serious and too rude, but now, i will never give a damn care to anybody's feeling.
I am finding a right way to express my annoyed-s. Playing counter strike and imagining that the opponents are those im referring to? yea it could be fun .
WHY THEY cant think sanely?
Behaving like everything is under control? Or just thinking that yourselves and capable enough to handle everything? I got no rights to point out your mistake, but I WANT TO.
I don't care what is your reason, because all your reasons given will be considered as an excuse to me, in my own conceit.
I can just resign the post, i don't actually mind.
Wanna bet?

LIFE Camp (OPEN TO WHOLE BP)

ATTENTION TO EVERY FACEBOOK ENTHUSIASTS,

LIFE camp will be on 29,30 November and 1 December. It is now OPEN TO EVERYONE who are interested in going. The campsite is Kem Sembrong at Air Hitam.
It goes with theme "Today's Campers, Tomorrow's Leaders"
The fee will be RM70 per person (trust me, surely worthwhile)
Spend Rm70 to such a beneficial activity is much more better than spending RM100++ to go playing.
FOR THOSE WHO ARE INTERESTED please PM me.
Or sms me, 0127762375 (Dick Lee)
We need participants, every of your presence will be very very very much
APPRECIATED.

MSSJ-Alike Competition

Today should be the first day of the MSSJ-Alike Competition which is held at Stadium Kluang.
I call it as MSSJ-Alike as the opponents or the runners are similar with those we met in MSSJ
before(means that it is State Level Competition).
You Qian, Kelvin and I were chosen to compete, but we just finished our final examination, lack of training is the problem.
You Qian is going today to have his 100m and 400m competed. I am asked to rest at home as my muscle feeling not that well(yesterday over-trained)
Y O U Q I A N !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You c a n m a k e it :-)

Facing the truth

I should have faced the truth earlier before i get hurt . . .

That I am actually not that good in expressing my idea or my feeling in the essay.

Ended up, I wrote some crap (I am in great earnest)

But then tomorrow's subject will be the subject that brings most boreness to each and everyone.

Erm... guess?

Yeah you're correct... It's history.

Once someone mentioning this subject in front of me, I would probably cry out that why don't we just take physics and add math in SPM ?

As long as we got two A+ for it, erm... considered as straight A+ also right? xD

I don't actually know what the heck I am doing right now.

I haven't started reading History from Chapter 6 onwards, and yet the structure and essay question will be coming out based on chapter 6-9 . It kills me.

I do not like to keep on calling myself "weapon-less warrior" for every exam, that is merely a way for me to find excuse for my laziness and my "sanctuary"

Although I don't study much , but what is actually in my mind is that I want to be in the same class for the year of 2010. It's like I do not work hard for it, yea i really don't.

Hopefully that the streaming of Pure Science depending on the 4 main subjects to divide the class for next year. I MAY then stand for a greater chance for it. Without knowing that actually I haven't finish studying chemistry, add math, physics and lastly biology.

Got to go, otherwise I'd better to go to other class by tomorrow, to adapt the atmosphere there before being transferred into it. -.-

Erm. Bucking up wei hao .

Fatigued

I don't know why i am always lacking of some idea to be written in my essay, especially some descriptive essay. It is hard to believe that how essay sample can easily overwhelm me...
Besides English, there are many other subjects that we have to put some concentration in, otherwise satisfaction would just doubt us, leave us and never come back to us T.T . No one wishes that that would ever happen, not even once.
I should have been more hardworking, where did the PMR's wei hao go...
I am not longer the PMR's wei hao, O.M.G. >.<
I AM FATIGUED ... EXHAUSTED ... TIRED ... trying resolutely to keep my eyes opened at this "wee's hour" xD
Actually i am now blogging at zheng shen's house ...
Have had a lot of fun just now...
We sang and crapped a lot ... scaring that his neighbour (for your information, his neighbour is Elisha Philip) will come over and XXX XXxxx
Gonna sleep now...Bye!

Frazzled

First of all, i would like to apologize for not updating my blog recently. I am too busy to do so.
The same bustle greets me everyday once upon waking up from the comfortable bed just because of having to study until very lately just to make sure that i will be in the same class next year. The fastened pace has fatigued me for two week since i was determined to study.
Study study study, it is a overpowering "good habit'' causes my head to throb with pain.
One more thing, I always betray my exhaustion by nodding my head while sleeping in the class. -.-
It is just too funny and amusing to others. I am always annoyed by the teacher as they just keep on shattering my "sanctuary" of trying to "rest more".
The mucus in my nose and my throat is somehow irritating... but i just cannot get well from it since i have to study until very lately every night. I am actually scared that my liver may not be functioning well in the future...
Arh ! God bless me ...
Such is the familiar pace of my days , no matter weekends or weekdays.
I am always exhausted-.-
Is this considered as an update to the blog of mine? xD
Gonna study now too...

Abriged Version of the Event (Specially for San-Shu)

We were first lieing Ah Ma that we were going out for a simple dinner as a celebration.

But in the whole afternoon till 7.00 p.m. , Ah Ma was still at my house,

where we could prevent her from knowing any of our plan.

At the duration, my auntie + dad + mummy were making sure that everything goes smoothly.

At the significant moment that she opened the door of little red kancil, she wondered,

whether she has accidentally entered another house, but after seeing all of the familiar

faces, she SMILED !!! Smile sweetly... with the merest presence of our love and "audacity".

Obviously, some of the people ran of of their patient, they KISSED my Ah Ma,

without having to wait until her enter the room or what...

they just ran there and kiss.

And yes, they are my parents + my sister ...

and my aunties and uncles' families also followed what they did, kiss kiss kiss...

aiyoyo...my Ah Ma pity wor...>.<>

After eating and chatting + greeting others and all that, the event reached its climax...

"Happy Birthday to you ...

Happy Birthday to you ...

Happy Birthday to Ah ~ Ma~...

Happy Birthday to you~~~~~"

I was then asking for a Malay Version Birthday Song,

but alas there was no one knew how to sing...

well T.T Being Ignored XD

Frankly speaking, a family demands some event like this, that might indirectly strengthen

our relationship. I LOVE MY FAMILY .

Lastly, balloon distribution time!!!!

Specially for children...

Erm, the situation seemed like a kindergarden...since there is so many children

See>?

My sister smiled evilly will the balloon given...XD

The event ended...with the smiles from everyone!!!

AH MA !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAR~~~!!!!!

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS...!!!!!!

ITS A PROMISE....

I KNOW YOUR WISH IS SURELY CONSIDERED FOR YOUR SONS AND GRANDSONS

So...I have made up my mind.

I WILL TRY MY BEST FOR NOT LETTING YOU DOWN.

AH MA I LOVE YOU.!!!!