I think I am not much better than a scumbag, or even worse.
Maybe I need guide, your guide, on what should I do.
It will be definitely better than keeping on making you sad, and I've been doing this stupid act for months, I am sorry.
I don't actually know what to be posted here.
I am kind of stupid, I suppose. Well, if I am not, you wouldn't have felt disappointed on me so far.
Feel like crying, damn!
Sorry and Please, please forgive me.
I don't ask for more, or I don't even have the rights to ask for anything, from you, for me.
Facing a person that I love so much, I really don't know how to put a full stop to it, to the thing that makes you suffering all this while.
SORRY!
Rest assured, I will keep trying, never will give up.
8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning, I love you.
You know this post is posted, because of you.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
With heartfelt apology...I am sorry...
Down and depression.
Sorry for hurting you, although i know even though i apologize in my blog, you won't visit also, but at least this is my way to reduce my own stress, that makes me even think of committing suicide.
What I did is foolish and impulsive,
If I could take it all back I'd do so this INSTANT.
I truly did not mean to hurt you in ANY WAY.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
Letting you know,
I'm repentant for everything...and how much I'm wishing, for THINGS to be the same as they were. Hope you'll FORGIVE me.
I know it is not easy to undo the hurt that I've caused to you. But I do seek for your forgiveness or even a smile, just one smile will do.
I don't know quite how to make thing better between us. I can start by saying sorry. And I mean it, I really do.
I hope that you are reading this stupid post, but maybe I think too much.
Sorry for hurting you, although i know even though i apologize in my blog, you won't visit also, but at least this is my way to reduce my own stress, that makes me even think of committing suicide.
What I did is foolish and impulsive,
If I could take it all back I'd do so this INSTANT.
I truly did not mean to hurt you in ANY WAY.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
Letting you know,
I'm repentant for everything...and how much I'm wishing, for THINGS to be the same as they were. Hope you'll FORGIVE me.
I know it is not easy to undo the hurt that I've caused to you. But I do seek for your forgiveness or even a smile, just one smile will do.
I don't know quite how to make thing better between us. I can start by saying sorry. And I mean it, I really do.
I hope that you are reading this stupid post, but maybe I think too much.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Compromise
It is just the third week since the school reopens, but it really pisses me off!
Emotional Suffering is the most abundant damage in my heart for this week, yeah this week i think.
No one is in the fault, but it just hurts. Sorry.
I don't want to give promise, as im scare that i will hurt u more if i do so but i cannot make it, that is blank promise. But anyways, I will try to be more meticulous, from now on, i cannot assure everyone, but at least for u, i want to be.
I have long since i feel like not wanting to open my eyes every morning. Sport trainings, HOMEWORKS, i don't actually know how it helps in our SPM. Frankly speaking, i hate the system like this, i love self-learning, -.- (anyway this is how i study) .
Nothing to be crapped at this "wee's hours" (wahaha chien wee i miss u suddenly xD)
Compromise, with teacher, with school authority,
can you all please don't wake me up when i am asleep in class?
can you all stop giving that much of homework that makes me restless?
can you all stop asking for fame by the stupid ignorance to students' feelings?
can you all please please please please do something preferable?
Ok well, i know i won't be approved for this compromise.
Good night. Homework is awaiting although the fatigue is overpowering.
This is life.
LIFE IS JUST A BITCH. (Tuesdays with Morrie)
Emotional Suffering is the most abundant damage in my heart for this week, yeah this week i think.
No one is in the fault, but it just hurts. Sorry.
I don't want to give promise, as im scare that i will hurt u more if i do so but i cannot make it, that is blank promise. But anyways, I will try to be more meticulous, from now on, i cannot assure everyone, but at least for u, i want to be.
I have long since i feel like not wanting to open my eyes every morning. Sport trainings, HOMEWORKS, i don't actually know how it helps in our SPM. Frankly speaking, i hate the system like this, i love self-learning, -.- (anyway this is how i study) .
Nothing to be crapped at this "wee's hours" (wahaha chien wee i miss u suddenly xD)
Compromise, with teacher, with school authority,
can you all please don't wake me up when i am asleep in class?
can you all stop giving that much of homework that makes me restless?
can you all stop asking for fame by the stupid ignorance to students' feelings?
can you all please please please please do something preferable?
Ok well, i know i won't be approved for this compromise.
Good night. Homework is awaiting although the fatigue is overpowering.
This is life.
LIFE IS JUST A BITCH. (Tuesdays with Morrie)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
LIFE Camp
A successful one~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope that those who had attended the camp are feeling damn great right now.
Im so happy , so delighted just by seeing you all enjoying the camp.
Really feel very unbearable to leave the campsite, to say goodbye with the campers and nevertheless, to leave the committees who had shared the weals and woes together and solved problems or trying situation together.
I cried, really cried.
It was just too touchy when we sing 朋友。
When the song reached the chorus, it was just the first chorus, my tears started to be that "girlish" and flowed out...
I went to the back of the crowd and tried to calm myself down and to stop myself from crying anymore, but, i failed.
After shaking hands with the campers, i hugged some closer campers, and then i cried again.
Damn touchy...
I went to the back of the stage after the playing of the song, as i clearly know that my tears were going to flow out again, or maybe can be described as "pipe-leaking-alike tears"
I met with Soo Jian at the back of the stage, when i saw him crying... wah omg my tears straight away flowed down again... i hugged him...he cried out that "i scared that im doing not that well"...
"Soo Jian ah, our camp so success liao...dun care bout all those stuff"
then we hugged together and cried.
We are not just sobbing, we crying loudly as the sound of the mikes were much more louder than ours.
So "pity" that i cannot join other committees at the 1st bus -.-
SOB~~~!!!!
only a few committees in the third bus...
Cant take picture either...
damn exhausted.
Anyway, im both happy and sad.
Nice Camp
LIFE CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!! ROCKs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope that those who had attended the camp are feeling damn great right now.
Im so happy , so delighted just by seeing you all enjoying the camp.
Really feel very unbearable to leave the campsite, to say goodbye with the campers and nevertheless, to leave the committees who had shared the weals and woes together and solved problems or trying situation together.
I cried, really cried.
It was just too touchy when we sing 朋友。
When the song reached the chorus, it was just the first chorus, my tears started to be that "girlish" and flowed out...
I went to the back of the crowd and tried to calm myself down and to stop myself from crying anymore, but, i failed.
After shaking hands with the campers, i hugged some closer campers, and then i cried again.
Damn touchy...
I went to the back of the stage after the playing of the song, as i clearly know that my tears were going to flow out again, or maybe can be described as "pipe-leaking-alike tears"
I met with Soo Jian at the back of the stage, when i saw him crying... wah omg my tears straight away flowed down again... i hugged him...he cried out that "i scared that im doing not that well"...
"Soo Jian ah, our camp so success liao...dun care bout all those stuff"
then we hugged together and cried.
We are not just sobbing, we crying loudly as the sound of the mikes were much more louder than ours.
So "pity" that i cannot join other committees at the 1st bus -.-
SOB~~~!!!!
only a few committees in the third bus...
Cant take picture either...
damn exhausted.
Anyway, im both happy and sad.
Nice Camp
LIFE CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!! ROCKs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
D.O.W.N.
Facing damn lotsa problem recently, created by some irresponsible creatures, who are considered as the cleverest creature in the continent.
They are just being too NAIVE, or shall i use "STUPID" ?
Yea, im DAMN annoyed right now.
You may thought that im being too serious and too rude, but now, i will never give a damn care to anybody's feeling.
I am finding a right way to express my annoyed-s. Playing counter strike and imagining that the opponents are those im referring to? yea it could be fun .
WHY THEY cant think sanely?
Behaving like everything is under control? Or just thinking that yourselves and capable enough to handle everything? I got no rights to point out your mistake, but I WANT TO.
I don't care what is your reason, because all your reasons given will be considered as an excuse to me, in my own conceit.
I can just resign the post, i don't actually mind.
Wanna bet?
They are just being too NAIVE, or shall i use "STUPID" ?
Yea, im DAMN annoyed right now.
You may thought that im being too serious and too rude, but now, i will never give a damn care to anybody's feeling.
I am finding a right way to express my annoyed-s. Playing counter strike and imagining that the opponents are those im referring to? yea it could be fun .
WHY THEY cant think sanely?
Behaving like everything is under control? Or just thinking that yourselves and capable enough to handle everything? I got no rights to point out your mistake, but I WANT TO.
I don't care what is your reason, because all your reasons given will be considered as an excuse to me, in my own conceit.
I can just resign the post, i don't actually mind.
Wanna bet?
LIFE Camp (OPEN TO WHOLE BP)
ATTENTION TO EVERY FACEBOOK ENTHUSIASTS,
LIFE camp will be on 29,30 November and 1 December. It is now OPEN TO EVERYONE who are interested in going. The campsite is Kem Sembrong at Air Hitam.
It goes with theme "Today's Campers, Tomorrow's Leaders"
The fee will be RM70 per person (trust me, surely worthwhile)
Spend Rm70 to such a beneficial activity is much more better than spending RM100++ to go playing.
FOR THOSE WHO ARE INTERESTED please PM me.
Or sms me, 0127762375 (Dick Lee)
We need participants, every of your presence will be very very very much
APPRECIATED.
LIFE camp will be on 29,30 November and 1 December. It is now OPEN TO EVERYONE who are interested in going. The campsite is Kem Sembrong at Air Hitam.
It goes with theme "Today's Campers, Tomorrow's Leaders"
The fee will be RM70 per person (trust me, surely worthwhile)
Spend Rm70 to such a beneficial activity is much more better than spending RM100++ to go playing.
FOR THOSE WHO ARE INTERESTED please PM me.
Or sms me, 0127762375 (Dick Lee)
We need participants, every of your presence will be very very very much
APPRECIATED.
Friday, November 13, 2009
MSSJ-Alike Competition
Today should be the first day of the MSSJ-Alike Competition which is held at Stadium Kluang.
I call it as MSSJ-Alike as the opponents or the runners are similar with those we met in MSSJ
before(means that it is State Level Competition).
You Qian, Kelvin and I were chosen to compete, but we just finished our final examination, lack of training is the problem.
You Qian is going today to have his 100m and 400m competed. I am asked to rest at home as my muscle feeling not that well(yesterday over-trained)
Y O U Q I A N !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You c a n m a k e it :-)
I call it as MSSJ-Alike as the opponents or the runners are similar with those we met in MSSJ
before(means that it is State Level Competition).
You Qian, Kelvin and I were chosen to compete, but we just finished our final examination, lack of training is the problem.
You Qian is going today to have his 100m and 400m competed. I am asked to rest at home as my muscle feeling not that well(yesterday over-trained)
Y O U Q I A N !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You c a n m a k e it :-)
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