Birthday. Yang's.

Everyone has a family. And so do I.
Be it a lovely one or a not-so-lovely one, it is your family.
So no matter what... JUST LOVE IT!
MINE is a lovely one, as always.
I have 2 sisters who are much younger than me...
and a brother who is just about my age...
We have so much in common.
We are both Scouts, Leos...
And of course I gotta admit that he is a good singer, at least much better than I am! haha...
I AM PROUD OF HIM !
Another thing, I know that he failed his pre-kingscout test...and he was depressed and down at that time...
But alas , that time I was still in National Service while I could do nothing to help him at all.
Feeling guilty that I was not there for him when he needed my company the most...
Yang, I'm sorry.
But you GOTTA know, you fail, not because you are not qualified.
You are just a mere victim of the stupid system and the decision of those examiners.
We could argue for nothing even if we think that we are right, because they have the authorities.
What to do? No worries. Kingscout is not everything :) Though.
Nowadays people always judge by your academic achievement.
So Yang ah, show the world. What you can do :)
You are always smarter than me, and more talented than me.
Don't waste your connate talent okay?
Just don't give up, my company will be the best gift you will ever receive. I promise.
Lastly, Happy Birthday Bro.
Stay happy always okay? :) I am always here! As always.

Best Buddy. You Qian.

I would like to share my feeling to everyone, through this blog.
Yeah, everyone has friends, good friends or buddies.
I am of course not an exception.
I have a lot of buddies... Forgive me for not being able to list out one by one, each and every one of you...
Because today, I am just going to mention ONE, whom I think without him, I am totally not who I am right now...
When I was form 1, I knew him during our Sports Day...
After Sports Day, we were both selected to represent our school, which is HIGH SCHOOL BATU PAHAT.
We stayed back everyday, together. P/S : At this time, we were in different class. He's a top student while I was nothing.
We stayed back every year, together, continuously for 5 years...
Oh ya. Lemme tell you all, about my wish and my hope when I was form 3...
I wish to have good result in PMR (that's not the point), so that I could study Science Stream (that's not the point yet), and a brighter future assurance(OMG too far away from the point).
Actually my target that year, was just to get good result and GET INTO THE SAME CLASS WITH YOU QIAN. And my another target after the first target achieved, was to SIT BESIDE HIM IN THE CLASS.
and YOU KNOW WHAT?
I got 8 A's and sat beside him for 2 years consecutively!!!!!
I gotta thank our Creator :) Thanks for fulfilling my dreams, although they are just simple ones, but they've made my life more wonderful, meaningful than ever.
Sitting beside him actually gave me a lot of pressure and it served as a reminder for me to work hard...
One more thing, he taught me a lot and helped me everytime without any hesitation.
I am not gonna make this post a sentimental one...
But seriously, YOU QIAN, no matter who we are in the future, I hope we won't lose contact with each other. :)
I always wanted to write about you, but tonight you reminded me by my birthday gift.
OWH GOSH I seriously didn't expect that you would actually buy a gift for me since my birthday had already passed approximately 1 month ...
YOU QIAN, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

This is the shirt You Qian gave me...♥ it much!!!!!

LEO Club of High School Batu Pahat

Roar! Roar! Roar! That is the spirit each member in our Leo club holds on to throughout the fiscal year of 2009/2010. “Even the weak become strong when they are united.” This is best to describe the members of our Leo club. The members of our Leo club range from Form 1 to Form 6, but we never come up with an interaction problem among ourselves. Instead, we share our weal and woe together, our friendship goes beyond mere friends to that a closeness that only family members could boast of. It wasn’t that easy to create the bond between all of us, but soon after our very first major activity, which was our joint installation with Leo Clubs of SMK Dato Syed Esa and Chinese High School, we had made it! We couldn’t adapt carrying out activity with other Leo clubs at first, and that’s why the preparation and the organization of the installation was appalling. However, through endless exhausting rehearsals, we managed to stage up with an outstanding yet significant installation night with all the protocols and decorum followed. The theme of “Peace, Hope & Unity… The Mysterious Strength” emphasizes that we should treasure the great camaraderie between all of us in order to make this world a better place to live in. Being an active club in school and in zone, we had been committing ourselves in a total of 64 activities together, including our monthly general meetings, school service activities, community service activities, recycling projects, and some activities organized by Lions Club of Batu Pahat. We had always been playing our roles well in preserving and conserving our environment, knowing that the environmental problems were getting serious and critical. In order to create awareness among the students in our school, we had organized “Save Our Mother Earth” (SOME) Campaign. This campaign was simply an event to remind everyone about the importance of protecting and appreciating our planet. With a Leo Garden which had been announced by school principal as one of the most beautiful garden in school compound, we , Leos, most commonly known as “Green Warriors” in the school. Other than that, we also organized “The Joy of Sight” Sight First Campaign at Summit Parade, where we provided free eye-checkups to public and distributed discount vouchers with the help and supervision from Sing Kong Optical Shop. Another major activity of our club was our 1st motivational camp---LIFE Camp, organized jointly by LEO Club and Interact Club of High School Batu Pahat in Kem Sembrong, Air Hitam. Organizing Committee worked together and created this inedible experience to both the campers and the organizing committees as well. I believe that those who had once immersed themselves in the laughter during LIFE Camp remember how we hugged and sobbed together after the closing ceremony of the camp! Lo and behold, we are not just a mere club which enthuses in community services, school services, and activities organized by Lions Club. In fact, other than serving the community, working together happily is our second priority. We really enjoy the time being together with each and every one in this club. Although we had dealt with many obstacles and obstruction along the way to success, we never back away. We are a family, a big family. We go with the same surname. It is so-called “LEO”!

It's time to blog!

Actually I don't really know what to be posted, but I just feel like blogging :-P
My vessels are now filled with the hatred of losing to a 16 years old boy in 110m Hurdles event,but shall do nothing. Most of you are trying resolutely to comfort me in many ways, but trust me, they will never work. I just need a space and some time to recover spiritually, i need time to mend the patches.
You know? When you are confident enough to get 1 thing, but ended up getting nothing. It's like hell-giving! Yeah, I am with a great winning streak in me, and that is the problem why i felt down in the dumps when that guy trounced me.


But,
"The darkest night is often the bridge to the brightest tomorrow :-)


Just let bygones be bygones :-)
I know that mishaps are like knives, that either serve us or cut us as we grasp them by the blade or the handle (-:
The noblest exercise of the mind within doors, and most befitting a person of quality, is study.


SO, let's study :-P

I lovE. Y.oU.

I think I am not much better than a scumbag, or even worse.
Maybe I need guide, your guide, on what should I do.
It will be definitely better than keeping on making you sad, and I've been doing this stupid act for months, I am sorry.
I don't actually know what to be posted here.
I am kind of stupid, I suppose. Well, if I am not, you wouldn't have felt disappointed on me so far.
Feel like crying, damn!
Sorry and Please, please forgive me.
I don't ask for more, or I don't even have the rights to ask for anything, from you, for me.
Facing a person that I love so much, I really don't know how to put a full stop to it, to the thing that makes you suffering all this while.
SORRY!
Rest assured, I will keep trying, never will give up.
8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning, I love you.
You know this post is posted, because of you.

With heartfelt apology...I am sorry...

Down and depression.
Sorry for hurting you, although i know even though i apologize in my blog, you won't visit also, but at least this is my way to reduce my own stress, that makes me even think of committing suicide.

What I did is foolish and impulsive,
If I could take it all back I'd do so this INSTANT.
I truly did not mean to hurt you in ANY WAY.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
Letting you know,
I'm repentant for everything...and how much I'm wishing, for THINGS to be the same as they were. Hope you'll FORGIVE me.

I know it is not easy to undo the hurt that I've caused to you. But I do seek for your forgiveness or even a smile, just one smile will do.

I don't know quite how to make thing better between us. I can start by saying sorry. And I mean it, I really do.

I hope that you are reading this stupid post, but maybe I think too much.

Compromise

It is just the third week since the school reopens, but it really pisses me off!
Emotional Suffering is the most abundant damage in my heart for this week, yeah this week i think.
No one is in the fault, but it just hurts. Sorry.
I don't want to give promise, as im scare that i will hurt u more if i do so but i cannot make it, that is blank promise. But anyways, I will try to be more meticulous, from now on, i cannot assure everyone, but at least for u, i want to be.
I have long since i feel like not wanting to open my eyes every morning. Sport trainings, HOMEWORKS, i don't actually know how it helps in our SPM. Frankly speaking, i hate the system like this, i love self-learning, -.- (anyway this is how i study) .
Nothing to be crapped at this "wee's hours" (wahaha chien wee i miss u suddenly xD)
Compromise, with teacher, with school authority,
can you all please don't wake me up when i am asleep in class?
can you all stop giving that much of homework that makes me restless?
can you all stop asking for fame by the stupid ignorance to students' feelings?
can you all please please please please do something preferable?
Ok well, i know i won't be approved for this compromise.
Good night. Homework is awaiting although the fatigue is overpowering.
This is life.
LIFE IS JUST A BITCH. (Tuesdays with Morrie)